the GUILT is killing me.

last night,abah told me to book a flight to Kl.
i wasn't in school anymore.OBVIOUSLY,it would be hard for me to remember all the dates.
he is suppose to fly on 29th.
somehow recklessly,i booked on the 30th.
dahla,he's in urgent.

i told him bout my mistake.
he laughed and said in his sarcasm tone*aihh,suruh buat benda kecik pun boleh silap adoih*
do you know how much it hurts??
i cried all night wishing that i can leave the house early.
go futher my study,have my own life,no more people putting blame on me.
seriously,i can't handle all the blame anymore.its killing me.
it killed me once and now its happening again.

PEOPLE ALWAYS LEAVE

the CHEER,the LAUGH,the FUN.

it is something we used to have.but like a song. every song has its end.but doesn't mean we can't enjoy it. AWEEN's going. she's going to sign up for this JPA japanese school this coming tuesday. crap,i'm starting feeling the emptiness when there is no longer stupid questions coming from her mouth. furthering studies maybe EXCITING but being futher apart from each other after almost a decade of friendship is PAINFUL. some people may think we are cliqy.but thats who we are. we stood up for each other.
if u're not okay with it,you do not belong here. get yourself a small world where people with no brain live in there.

TO MISS FAZWEEN RUZAMIL
i'm having too much fun when i'm with you.
i'm glad i met you last 10 years.
now u're leaving,all my best wishes are with you.
have fun at the new place.muahs
lots of love.