i'm not the BRAVE type.

They say we leave this world just the way we came into it ---- naked and alone.

So, if we do leave with nothing, What then, is a measure of a life ? Is it defined by the people we choose to love ?

Or is life simply measured by our accomplishments ?

And what if we fail ? or are never truly loved ? What then ? Can we ever measure up ?

Or will the quiet desperation of a life gone wanting, Drive us mad ?

**i quoted this from one of my favourite tv shows,one tree hill.half of the class dah dpt jpa scholarship.i got it too but it is for accounting.it always been my dream to become a surgeon but the dream almost poof because of my spm result.my pa is giving me choices.i would have click yess for accountancy but don't you think i'm giving up on my dream.i don't want to end up regretting for not persuing my dream if i choose accountancy,especially when i'm seeing myself in 5 years,watching grey's anatomy,feeling all the regret not choosing medicine.
Most seniors are advising me to go for the accountancy.
I have a thing for medicine and i still want to do it.
so bye JPA,you're not my dream.i love my dream and i want it to happen so badly.
but LUCAS SCOTT is right,spending my life wanting is driving me mad.
being mad of it will be worthy if i succeed.i hope i would.

i'm always afraid of what i've chosen,i'll be more afraid if i can't find my own fairy tales ending.

like i said before,i'm not the brave type.

love,sha.

well-PLANNED peep

hmm.
i'm going to UM in less than a fortnight.
so today is the day where i drove to GIANT store with my two fav hangout buds,
AKMA and LIN.
nak beli toiletries.:-0
semangat nak masuk uni.normal la kan.

but WHY giant?
sbb HE works there,the USED TO BE MY DREAM GUY,hshs.
he works temp. dkat mbrown giant tu.
he just finished his one year course at a uni in phg.
so dia keja la kat situ.
seeing him in the red uniform.boleh tahannnn.haha
ok,i'm acting stupid,but thinking of him brings out all the childishness in me.

FYI people,i'm over him.
but who can erase the past kan?
he will always be there,anywhere,everywhere,
i need a brand new me to deal with all the crap from the past.
and i know i will do it greatly when i'm in a new place with new peeps.
i just need extra back-ups.tu ja.

till then.lots of muahss.

UNEXPECTED MEETING

can i CURSE myself right now????

how on earth i could end up having my lunch at pak hainan?
to tell the truth,i'm not a big FAN of pak hainan food.
today,suddenly,unpredictably,i've asked o'on and ayu.

*wei,wei jom p pak hainan,LAPAQLA!

we made a nice entrance to pak hainan and sat on one of the tables there.
i wasn't looking at the people except this one crazy guy who happen to look like kak syarah with
his curly hair.
xpala.then we started to crap pasai pak hainan when suddenly i heard a voice calling,SHA,SHA!
i turned around and saw him,the guy i thought that might be MY GUY back then when i was immatured,childish and stupid.somehow,things went wrong very badly and we end up not talking to each other for a very long time.
today.we met,we talked but i can't bare looking into his eyes.
too hurtful :-(


i hate it when i bump into my past.it hurts and not so much of a cherish moment.
pastu,duduk x senang,makan pun dah x best.
WHY ARE YOU HERE?
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO COME BACK?
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO SHOW UP?


go away.i'm letting the thoughts of you go too.
shuh.shuh.shuh.please.